Didnt do too good today, binged a little more than yesterday ): dont think i’ll eat much for the next few days as bad as that is i’m gonna have to do it. Ive put on way too much weight and this eating disorder is taking over me! Ah. 

i also just burnt half my hair off by leaning over a candle. ): ): ): it smells so bad 

Didnt binge much compared to normally. 
I only had - 
x2 banana and peanut butter sandwiches  
scrambled eggs with x4 slices of toast plus tomato and onion
tea with x2 sugar and milk 
Around 2300 calorie binge
I stopped myself there! now im gonna go run some of it off, havent ran in a while so i just might die.. 

went 2days without binging at all! but no. now im depressed and fat again cause this guy i fucked wants nothing to do with me any more and basically used me. i knew it was too good to be true. im too fat. and ugly. and stupid and i feel like hospitalizing myself